My ministry "flaws"
My ministry "flaws"
As my ministry draws to a "close" - that is, in active service where school is concerned, I began to take some time to reflect about my ministry all these years - not just in school, but in church also.
I accepted the Lord when I was a teenager and began to be active in church service only about 4 to 5 years later - partly due to the fact that my parents are non-believers and they did not like the idea of me attending church so regularly. It was such joy when they finally gave their blessing for my baptism and began to attend some special church events during the festive seasons. That was also when I began to be more active in church ministry - beginning with teaching Sunday School.
I guess it was because of my character and personality - my detail-minded, my cautiousness (I have the tendency to "pre-empt" things and make preventions if I can before-hand), my dependability, etc - I was given more major roles gradually. From a teacher to heading the entire department in the section of the Sunday School, to heading the music ministry in the section of the Sunday School, and finally to heading the entire Sunday School as a Superintendent. In between I had also straddle between Sunday School and the Worship ministry, gaining experiences as a worship leader, etc.
I guess my "flaws" in the ministry is that I'm too dependable and perfectionistic - so much as that a great deal of things came under my scope and "control". I also had a tendency to "do everything myself" - partly also due to bad experiences that some jobs delegated gets shot back to you, either undone or haphazardly done. As a result, when it was time to hand over, the person who needs to take over find the shoes somewhat too big to fit - I guess it's the same for the school ministry as well, when colleagues came and ask, "Must you leave?", "We could see the difference before and after you came - must you go?", etc, etc.
Sigh* sometimes being overly efficient isn't so much a good thing, I realized. Being too dependable and perfectionist isn't a good thing either - at least I feel that for the person who needs to take over, I had created a very "high" standard to maintain. I guess personally, for a control freak like me, it has also created that "possession" in me over the ministry - but like what I mentioned in some of my previous posts, God has made the hand-over really easy all these while as He patiently teach me to let go. My "flaws" where ministry is concerned - I guess it's hard to change because those are my nature and character but I'll learn, I'm sure.
God knows best, and one thing I know, He will put the right person at the right place for the right season. So let's not compare the new one is better, or the seasoned one is better, for each person has different services to offer to God and His people.
As my ministry draws to a "close" - that is, in active service where school is concerned, I began to take some time to reflect about my ministry all these years - not just in school, but in church also.
I accepted the Lord when I was a teenager and began to be active in church service only about 4 to 5 years later - partly due to the fact that my parents are non-believers and they did not like the idea of me attending church so regularly. It was such joy when they finally gave their blessing for my baptism and began to attend some special church events during the festive seasons. That was also when I began to be more active in church ministry - beginning with teaching Sunday School.
I guess it was because of my character and personality - my detail-minded, my cautiousness (I have the tendency to "pre-empt" things and make preventions if I can before-hand), my dependability, etc - I was given more major roles gradually. From a teacher to heading the entire department in the section of the Sunday School, to heading the music ministry in the section of the Sunday School, and finally to heading the entire Sunday School as a Superintendent. In between I had also straddle between Sunday School and the Worship ministry, gaining experiences as a worship leader, etc.
I guess my "flaws" in the ministry is that I'm too dependable and perfectionistic - so much as that a great deal of things came under my scope and "control". I also had a tendency to "do everything myself" - partly also due to bad experiences that some jobs delegated gets shot back to you, either undone or haphazardly done. As a result, when it was time to hand over, the person who needs to take over find the shoes somewhat too big to fit - I guess it's the same for the school ministry as well, when colleagues came and ask, "Must you leave?", "We could see the difference before and after you came - must you go?", etc, etc.
Sigh* sometimes being overly efficient isn't so much a good thing, I realized. Being too dependable and perfectionist isn't a good thing either - at least I feel that for the person who needs to take over, I had created a very "high" standard to maintain. I guess personally, for a control freak like me, it has also created that "possession" in me over the ministry - but like what I mentioned in some of my previous posts, God has made the hand-over really easy all these while as He patiently teach me to let go. My "flaws" where ministry is concerned - I guess it's hard to change because those are my nature and character but I'll learn, I'm sure.
God knows best, and one thing I know, He will put the right person at the right place for the right season. So let's not compare the new one is better, or the seasoned one is better, for each person has different services to offer to God and His people.
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