When giving up becomes painful
When giving up becomes painful
Have you ever gave up something you cherished dearly, or someone you loved tenderly - I mean, not by your choice if you can help it? And of course, the reason is for the greater good of the situation or the parties involved.
Giving up something close to your heart is just painful, isn't it? And learning to let go is never easy.
As end May draws nearer and I begin to phase out more and more from my involvement with the school ministry and CCA, I begin to feel more and more of a pinch of what I need to let go. 7 years - it took me 7 years to see some results in the ministry I've labored ... to see girls that I've spent time with blossom into maturity and growing in the Lord ... to earn the trust from the staff of the school to let me anchor major events, etc.
For the main part of the ministry, JY will be able to take over, but for CCA - that will not be her area of focus. And when I look at the "readiness" of the younger girls to take over the leadership from their seniors who are stepping down and leaving the CCA at almost the same time as me, I seriously begin to be worried - and that's when I begin to feel the pinch real hard. "What will become of the committee? Will the new batch of leaders be able to rise up? Will they be godly in their lives and be good role models? Will they be able to strengthen even more the backbone of the CCA?" Questions after questions just flashed through the mind. Yes, I know there will be another officer attached to the committee, but knowing how busy the load of the teachers/officers, and the busyness of the students as well, I can't help but worry, worry, worry ...
Nevertheless, I must say "God knows me best" - He knew it would be hard for me to let go of my past 7 years of work, so He made the entire process a lot more easier. The fact that I need to make a decision to leave the ministry so as to begin college full-time helps ease the phasing out somewhat. I also sensed the Lord reminding me over and over again that I'm not indispensable, and the best time to leave a ministry is actually to leave it when it's at the peak, rather than when I'm actually feeling tired, worn out, drained, disillusioned, etc. And before I find myself hitting saturation point and running on maintenance mode, I guess leaving the ministry would be the best option.
God knows me best - He knew what a "control freak" I can be ... He knew how much pride can rise up within me if I continue in this ministry ... He knew how I can easily become complacent and sink into auto-pilot mode ... He knew when I would be effective and when I will perhaps stop being so ... He knew when the ministry needs a change of hand, etc. What more can I say of the way He has led me, and His gentleness in making things so much bearable and easier?
God's work done in God's way will never lack God's supplies - Hudson Taylor. We are all not indispensable. When God says "move", He knows what He's doing.
Have you ever gave up something you cherished dearly, or someone you loved tenderly - I mean, not by your choice if you can help it? And of course, the reason is for the greater good of the situation or the parties involved.
Giving up something close to your heart is just painful, isn't it? And learning to let go is never easy.
As end May draws nearer and I begin to phase out more and more from my involvement with the school ministry and CCA, I begin to feel more and more of a pinch of what I need to let go. 7 years - it took me 7 years to see some results in the ministry I've labored ... to see girls that I've spent time with blossom into maturity and growing in the Lord ... to earn the trust from the staff of the school to let me anchor major events, etc.
For the main part of the ministry, JY will be able to take over, but for CCA - that will not be her area of focus. And when I look at the "readiness" of the younger girls to take over the leadership from their seniors who are stepping down and leaving the CCA at almost the same time as me, I seriously begin to be worried - and that's when I begin to feel the pinch real hard. "What will become of the committee? Will the new batch of leaders be able to rise up? Will they be godly in their lives and be good role models? Will they be able to strengthen even more the backbone of the CCA?" Questions after questions just flashed through the mind. Yes, I know there will be another officer attached to the committee, but knowing how busy the load of the teachers/officers, and the busyness of the students as well, I can't help but worry, worry, worry ...
Nevertheless, I must say "God knows me best" - He knew it would be hard for me to let go of my past 7 years of work, so He made the entire process a lot more easier. The fact that I need to make a decision to leave the ministry so as to begin college full-time helps ease the phasing out somewhat. I also sensed the Lord reminding me over and over again that I'm not indispensable, and the best time to leave a ministry is actually to leave it when it's at the peak, rather than when I'm actually feeling tired, worn out, drained, disillusioned, etc. And before I find myself hitting saturation point and running on maintenance mode, I guess leaving the ministry would be the best option.
God knows me best - He knew what a "control freak" I can be ... He knew how much pride can rise up within me if I continue in this ministry ... He knew how I can easily become complacent and sink into auto-pilot mode ... He knew when I would be effective and when I will perhaps stop being so ... He knew when the ministry needs a change of hand, etc. What more can I say of the way He has led me, and His gentleness in making things so much bearable and easier?
God's work done in God's way will never lack God's supplies - Hudson Taylor. We are all not indispensable. When God says "move", He knows what He's doing.
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