Excited ... yet apprehensive ...
Excited ... yet apprehensive ...
I met up with my Field Education supervisor this morning (thank God for my bro-in-law who graciously gave me a lift - all the way from home to Changi, and thank my supervisor for another lift to town where it's more convenient for me to catch a cab back home after that!!) and we were discussing about my plans for next semester FE.
I had chosen to do my FE with the Prison Fellowship Singapore - firstly, it's not a place I will have a chance to do my FE if not because of the opening that the college has with the Fellowship. Secondly, I've always wondered how and what life is like within the walls and am really curious to know more firsthand by being there to see. Thirdly, I've always had a heart for those "on the fringe" - those whom society (sadly, even churches) reject because of their past.
I won't say I'm not apprehensible at all about the coming FE experience. In fact, to be honest I am. I wonder if I can really genuinely love those I will be meeting ... I wonder if I can communicate with them - at their level - and gain their trust and friendship ... I wonder if I will give in to temptation and begin looking at them with colored glasses because they are "different" ... I wonder if I will be wise in handling my conversations with them, keeping in mind how much more streetwise they are than me - and yet, still be unreserve, sincere and real in treating them ... I wonder ... and I wonder ...
It was a good session of meeting up with my supervisor. He did prepare me somewhat but yet at the same time "frightened" me. He said, "Just think of the girls you've come across during your ministry ... the most defiant, worst behaved girl ... Now, multiply that by 100 times ... that will be those you will be encountering in the prison."
Scary huh, when you hear these words. Yet I know it's a challenge, and I know I will learn a great deal, and I believe it will be an experience with no regrets. I'm excited about it, but yet apprehensive .... pray with me, and pray for me ... thanks =)
I met up with my Field Education supervisor this morning (thank God for my bro-in-law who graciously gave me a lift - all the way from home to Changi, and thank my supervisor for another lift to town where it's more convenient for me to catch a cab back home after that!!) and we were discussing about my plans for next semester FE.
I had chosen to do my FE with the Prison Fellowship Singapore - firstly, it's not a place I will have a chance to do my FE if not because of the opening that the college has with the Fellowship. Secondly, I've always wondered how and what life is like within the walls and am really curious to know more firsthand by being there to see. Thirdly, I've always had a heart for those "on the fringe" - those whom society (sadly, even churches) reject because of their past.
I won't say I'm not apprehensible at all about the coming FE experience. In fact, to be honest I am. I wonder if I can really genuinely love those I will be meeting ... I wonder if I can communicate with them - at their level - and gain their trust and friendship ... I wonder if I will give in to temptation and begin looking at them with colored glasses because they are "different" ... I wonder if I will be wise in handling my conversations with them, keeping in mind how much more streetwise they are than me - and yet, still be unreserve, sincere and real in treating them ... I wonder ... and I wonder ...
It was a good session of meeting up with my supervisor. He did prepare me somewhat but yet at the same time "frightened" me. He said, "Just think of the girls you've come across during your ministry ... the most defiant, worst behaved girl ... Now, multiply that by 100 times ... that will be those you will be encountering in the prison."
Scary huh, when you hear these words. Yet I know it's a challenge, and I know I will learn a great deal, and I believe it will be an experience with no regrets. I'm excited about it, but yet apprehensive .... pray with me, and pray for me ... thanks =)
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