Physically tired, mentally exhausted, intellectually challenged
Physically tired, mentally exhausted, intellectually challenged
One month of full-time student life just zoomed past like that. Although it has been an enjoyable learning journey, but what I used to think about, "Oh, I should have more time for readings, assignments, etc, when I come on full-time, since my job would simply be a student and study." Far from it!!! Reality is always cruel, in fact I find myself practically "breathless" from coping with all the demands - well, maybe it's some expectations I had put on myself that resulted such feelings ...
I'm physically tired - tired from the travelling, tired from a secondary commitment I need to fulfill, tired from waking up early even on days when I've got no class so that I could have more time to read ... to summarize, tired from having no other life besides study, study and study ... I'm a hermit.
I'm mentally exhausted - all the readings are just making me crazy!! Although there are overlaps in most of the subjects in the early part of the course, but all the readings are making me "confused" and mixed up. I'm beginning to suspect that my lecturers think that students are only taking ONE subject - THEIR subject in the entire semester, and the amount of reading each subject requires is simply CRAZY!! Imagine reading beyond 50 pages of either the required text, or extra reading material. Some lecturers gave 2, 3 or even 4 sets of reading material each week - multiply each set by an average of 30 to 40 pages - see how much you get ... Granted, you can't (and won't be able to ) finish reading everything and I recognized that too, but I guess as much as I can, I will try my best, and probably so, I'm getting myself mentally exhausted.
I'm intellectually challenged - don't get me wrong, I like to be challenged intellectually so that I can think and reason things out. But this is different!! Having read all the material, I've got to scrutinize them (imagine the amount of time I have left to do all these scrutiny???) and do presentation for some of the subjects, or be prepared for Q&A for some. That's really just beyond me. I don't think I'm a stupid person, but I won't consider myself exceptionally bright also - I'm just not those calibre that can generate or formulate intelligent questions, or perhaps cleverly answer questions in such a manner that just "wow" your other classmates.
Sigh* what have I gotten myself into??? =( I know it's something I won't regret and that benefits me, but ...
One month of full-time student life just zoomed past like that. Although it has been an enjoyable learning journey, but what I used to think about, "Oh, I should have more time for readings, assignments, etc, when I come on full-time, since my job would simply be a student and study." Far from it!!! Reality is always cruel, in fact I find myself practically "breathless" from coping with all the demands - well, maybe it's some expectations I had put on myself that resulted such feelings ...
I'm physically tired - tired from the travelling, tired from a secondary commitment I need to fulfill, tired from waking up early even on days when I've got no class so that I could have more time to read ... to summarize, tired from having no other life besides study, study and study ... I'm a hermit.
I'm mentally exhausted - all the readings are just making me crazy!! Although there are overlaps in most of the subjects in the early part of the course, but all the readings are making me "confused" and mixed up. I'm beginning to suspect that my lecturers think that students are only taking ONE subject - THEIR subject in the entire semester, and the amount of reading each subject requires is simply CRAZY!! Imagine reading beyond 50 pages of either the required text, or extra reading material. Some lecturers gave 2, 3 or even 4 sets of reading material each week - multiply each set by an average of 30 to 40 pages - see how much you get ... Granted, you can't (and won't be able to ) finish reading everything and I recognized that too, but I guess as much as I can, I will try my best, and probably so, I'm getting myself mentally exhausted.
I'm intellectually challenged - don't get me wrong, I like to be challenged intellectually so that I can think and reason things out. But this is different!! Having read all the material, I've got to scrutinize them (imagine the amount of time I have left to do all these scrutiny???) and do presentation for some of the subjects, or be prepared for Q&A for some. That's really just beyond me. I don't think I'm a stupid person, but I won't consider myself exceptionally bright also - I'm just not those calibre that can generate or formulate intelligent questions, or perhaps cleverly answer questions in such a manner that just "wow" your other classmates.
Sigh* what have I gotten myself into??? =( I know it's something I won't regret and that benefits me, but ...
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Thank God He does not require us to be geniuses in order to get into heaven.
So chill, sis...as my friend told me...don't worry about not scoring all 'As' or appearing smart...you won't lose your salvation. =)