Just babbling ...
Just babbling ...
I think I’m falling sick – signs of muscle ache, signs of dry throat … oh, I dread being sick! =( Well, I guess if I continue to push myself so hard or if I don’t watch my health, then God is really going to force me to rest =( But can’t be helped!! So much to do, and there seems to be so “little” time – all the readings which by God's grace I have still been able to accomplish according to schedule (think of it … I’ve never read so much in my entire life, and I have NEVER been so disciplined to read all that I’m required to! =); all the assignments that seem unending; all the work that seems to pile up soon if I don’t clear them quick enough; all the marking that I need to finish before the close of the term this week; all the nitty-gritties that needs attention – at home, in school, friends, personally, etc … Phew, I need a rest! I need a break! I need a holiday!
Why do people not believe that I can be ill-disciplined too? Friends always say, “You, worried about deadlines? Please, you are one of the most discipline one k …” Oh, thank you for having so much faith and trust in me, but sometimes such statements are so “pressurizing” – I mean, the underlying implication is that people put so much of their trust in you that you just can’t bear to let them down, isn’t it? And as a result, no matter what, you just have to produce and produce and produce – no wonder my plate is filling up more and more =(
Somehow, after these 2 months of church visitation, I kind of “enjoy” being “lazy” for a while, that is, not committed to serving in any ministry =) I guess to a certain extent, I need the break … so it became a bit “scary” and “stressful” when I kept getting messages asking me when I’m going back to the Mandarin service to lead worship and play keyboard … I know you guys are short-handed, but give me a little more time to rest can, I haven't had any sabbatical since I began teaching in Sunday School 15 years ago! =P Aiya, but knowing me, so long as I get back to church after the field education program ends, my heart will be so softened that I will say “OK” immediately to all your “pleadings” =(
Sigh* and all the marking is just making my eyes so tired and strained – especially those words that I can’t make head or tail of … the writings that got “squashed” together … the sentences that I can’t make sense ??? Please, my dear girls, if you want to submit journals that are written, write them legibly and neatly. You are causing my eye power to increase in degree and decrease in strength =(
Help! Bring me out for coffee ... bring me out for a break ... God multiply my time!
I think I’m falling sick – signs of muscle ache, signs of dry throat … oh, I dread being sick! =( Well, I guess if I continue to push myself so hard or if I don’t watch my health, then God is really going to force me to rest =( But can’t be helped!! So much to do, and there seems to be so “little” time – all the readings which by God's grace I have still been able to accomplish according to schedule (think of it … I’ve never read so much in my entire life, and I have NEVER been so disciplined to read all that I’m required to! =); all the assignments that seem unending; all the work that seems to pile up soon if I don’t clear them quick enough; all the marking that I need to finish before the close of the term this week; all the nitty-gritties that needs attention – at home, in school, friends, personally, etc … Phew, I need a rest! I need a break! I need a holiday!
Why do people not believe that I can be ill-disciplined too? Friends always say, “You, worried about deadlines? Please, you are one of the most discipline one k …” Oh, thank you for having so much faith and trust in me, but sometimes such statements are so “pressurizing” – I mean, the underlying implication is that people put so much of their trust in you that you just can’t bear to let them down, isn’t it? And as a result, no matter what, you just have to produce and produce and produce – no wonder my plate is filling up more and more =(
Somehow, after these 2 months of church visitation, I kind of “enjoy” being “lazy” for a while, that is, not committed to serving in any ministry =) I guess to a certain extent, I need the break … so it became a bit “scary” and “stressful” when I kept getting messages asking me when I’m going back to the Mandarin service to lead worship and play keyboard … I know you guys are short-handed, but give me a little more time to rest can, I haven't had any sabbatical since I began teaching in Sunday School 15 years ago! =P Aiya, but knowing me, so long as I get back to church after the field education program ends, my heart will be so softened that I will say “OK” immediately to all your “pleadings” =(
Sigh* and all the marking is just making my eyes so tired and strained – especially those words that I can’t make head or tail of … the writings that got “squashed” together … the sentences that I can’t make sense ??? Please, my dear girls, if you want to submit journals that are written, write them legibly and neatly. You are causing my eye power to increase in degree and decrease in strength =(
Help! Bring me out for coffee ... bring me out for a break ... God multiply my time!
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