When that tiredness is worth the while
When that tiredness is worth the while ...
Yup yup I know, my blog is like gathering cobwebs already ... sigh, I guess when all the things that caused me to be diverted in my attention, I can't help but give updating of the blog a miss.
Life has been busy, as usual. Great deal to read, great deal to memorize, great deal to learn, great deal to remember, great deal to think through and jot them down in concrete thoughts and presentable ideas for papers ... very tiring, very draining, and sometimes wondering what am I doing all these things for ...
Amazing isn't it? God always know when we need that little pat on the shoulder, that little word of encouragement, that little moment of concern, that little touch that lift the spirit.
I was encouraged by the openness of one of the inmate that I've been ministering to, and she said she felt very drawn to me when she first saw me. Though I have not yet had much opportunities to speak in more detail with her (constrain of time every week when the team is there to minister and conduct chapel), she had already been open to share a few things with me. A comment she made warmed my heart. She said that I've had that joyful spirit in me and that has helped her in a way. Sometimes when the team came over to minister, she said she felt that some of them are troubled themselves, or heavy laden, tired, etc - and that kind of made her "distance" herself from them. I was really encouraged by what she said and definitely am thankful to the Lord for giving me a heart that is light because He has lifted my burdens and given me the joy.
I've also been busy with college matters lately - Council, mugging for quizzes, translation of sermon cum interpretation - my very first attempt - on hindsight I felt a bit garang in saying "yes" to college chaplain when he first asked me. It was something I've not done before but am rather keen to try - to me, if I did not give myself a chance to attempt something new, I would never know if I'm capable of handing that challenge. I must say it hasn't been easy - I spent the entire Sunday just translating the sermon and as a result I did not touch my Theology quiz preparation a single bit. I was very very tempted to just leave the sermon aside, but when I thought about how the sermon affects the larger community in the college versus how the quiz affects only me as a single person, I decided to shelf the quiz preparation aside. Wasn't easy I must say because I was really left with very little time to study for the quiz.
Honestly speaking, the quiz isn't that difficult but because of my lack of time, I did not really remember a lot of info, resulting in mental block when I was doing the quiz. I don't know if I will even clear the quiz - I figured that it's quite a risk actually, between a pass and a fail. If I flop in this quiz, it's going to be my first failure in academic assignment thus far - how will I cope? I don't know ... In the midst of all these busyness, I'm really thankful that there's someone who bothered to ask me, "how are you coping? I know you have to do the translation and interpretation and help out in the Holy Communion, and there's Theo quiz to manage. Are you ok?" Someone cares enough ... thanks.
Finally the quiz is over and interpretation for the sermon is over - I felt like a worn-out soldier after everything. But the feeling was great - a sense of achievement that I've done something and combat a challenge. Thanks to many (friends, college mates, lecturers, etc) for the encouragement and feedback.
I've come to realize sometimes it's not about how much life is weighing you down - it's about who are around you during your time of need to encourage you, cheer you on, give a little pat on the shoulder. Life isn't easy at all, or is it? And while we trod on faithfully in this life that God has given to us, do remember people around us who also need that encouragement, cheering and little pat - that may be something that will give them the strength to carry on and confront challenges. I thank God for what I've learnt and what He has reminded me through all these.
Sorry, the writing don't seemed to be very coherent I guess, but I just thought I needed to jot down some of these thoughts. Thanks for reading =)
Yup yup I know, my blog is like gathering cobwebs already ... sigh, I guess when all the things that caused me to be diverted in my attention, I can't help but give updating of the blog a miss.
Life has been busy, as usual. Great deal to read, great deal to memorize, great deal to learn, great deal to remember, great deal to think through and jot them down in concrete thoughts and presentable ideas for papers ... very tiring, very draining, and sometimes wondering what am I doing all these things for ...
Amazing isn't it? God always know when we need that little pat on the shoulder, that little word of encouragement, that little moment of concern, that little touch that lift the spirit.
I was encouraged by the openness of one of the inmate that I've been ministering to, and she said she felt very drawn to me when she first saw me. Though I have not yet had much opportunities to speak in more detail with her (constrain of time every week when the team is there to minister and conduct chapel), she had already been open to share a few things with me. A comment she made warmed my heart. She said that I've had that joyful spirit in me and that has helped her in a way. Sometimes when the team came over to minister, she said she felt that some of them are troubled themselves, or heavy laden, tired, etc - and that kind of made her "distance" herself from them. I was really encouraged by what she said and definitely am thankful to the Lord for giving me a heart that is light because He has lifted my burdens and given me the joy.
I've also been busy with college matters lately - Council, mugging for quizzes, translation of sermon cum interpretation - my very first attempt - on hindsight I felt a bit garang in saying "yes" to college chaplain when he first asked me. It was something I've not done before but am rather keen to try - to me, if I did not give myself a chance to attempt something new, I would never know if I'm capable of handing that challenge. I must say it hasn't been easy - I spent the entire Sunday just translating the sermon and as a result I did not touch my Theology quiz preparation a single bit. I was very very tempted to just leave the sermon aside, but when I thought about how the sermon affects the larger community in the college versus how the quiz affects only me as a single person, I decided to shelf the quiz preparation aside. Wasn't easy I must say because I was really left with very little time to study for the quiz.
Honestly speaking, the quiz isn't that difficult but because of my lack of time, I did not really remember a lot of info, resulting in mental block when I was doing the quiz. I don't know if I will even clear the quiz - I figured that it's quite a risk actually, between a pass and a fail. If I flop in this quiz, it's going to be my first failure in academic assignment thus far - how will I cope? I don't know ... In the midst of all these busyness, I'm really thankful that there's someone who bothered to ask me, "how are you coping? I know you have to do the translation and interpretation and help out in the Holy Communion, and there's Theo quiz to manage. Are you ok?" Someone cares enough ... thanks.
Finally the quiz is over and interpretation for the sermon is over - I felt like a worn-out soldier after everything. But the feeling was great - a sense of achievement that I've done something and combat a challenge. Thanks to many (friends, college mates, lecturers, etc) for the encouragement and feedback.
I've come to realize sometimes it's not about how much life is weighing you down - it's about who are around you during your time of need to encourage you, cheer you on, give a little pat on the shoulder. Life isn't easy at all, or is it? And while we trod on faithfully in this life that God has given to us, do remember people around us who also need that encouragement, cheering and little pat - that may be something that will give them the strength to carry on and confront challenges. I thank God for what I've learnt and what He has reminded me through all these.
Sorry, the writing don't seemed to be very coherent I guess, but I just thought I needed to jot down some of these thoughts. Thanks for reading =)
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