Where's my composure??
Where's my composure??
On my way to campus this morning, someone rammed into my car when I stopped at a give-way sign for an on-coming car making a U-turn. As the traffic at that road was rather heavy, both cars moved a distance away to a safer place where we stopped and exchanged particulars.
It's not the first accident I had with my vehicle (had minor ones in the past) but somehow I just couldn't think and react rationally there and then when both drivers surveyed the damages and decide on what to do. I didn't do a lot of things because my mind was just like a whirlwind - I guess partly I'm affected by the loud noise that sounds like metal scratching against each other when I drove a little distance from the accident scene and that really frustrates me.
The right thing I should have done is to exchange particulars on the I/C - I only took down his name (not even full name!!) and didn't check his I/C at all. I should have noticed the make of the car or even take a picture of it - Bro was amused at how I could not recall I have a mobile camera (handphone) with me that I can simply snap. The only decent thing I knew I did right was when the other driver wrote his number down on a slip of paper, I immediately used my own mobile phone to give him a missed call - at least I made sure I had the right number =)
Bro helped me a great deal with the "aftermaths" - especially when I was complaining to him about how frustrated and irritated I was at the loud noise when I drove the car - everyone must be looking at me drive past and wondering "what's wrong with this car - the noise is louder than a modified sports car ..." haha. Anyway, Bro brought me to his mechanic and we decided to make a report to Idac because I needed a temporary car and making a claim to the insurance company was the only way out. Besides, the other driver insisted that it was merely the chip of the bumper clip, but obviously the bumper was worst hit than he imagined. I don't feel safe bringing my car to his recommended workshop at all, especially if there are ill-effects on this car that I will have to handle if not well repaired because of cost.
Anyway, as I looked back on how I handled the entire situation, I was asking myself, "where's my composure?? What had happened to it??" I used to be able to calmly think through things when situations like this crop up and rationally make a decision. What has happened to it? I guess when I really thought through this, I could trace it back to what I experienced about my dad - the sudden shock that just threw me off. The incidents were not related in any way, but the feelings generated from that incident obviously had repercussions. Little wonder why I often jumped whenever some things cropped up at home. It's an area I still need healing and restoration of confidence, but I guess the realization of it would make the working and managing of such feelings when it crop up again a lot easier?? I certainly hope ... and I trust the good Lord to help me as I learn.
On my way to campus this morning, someone rammed into my car when I stopped at a give-way sign for an on-coming car making a U-turn. As the traffic at that road was rather heavy, both cars moved a distance away to a safer place where we stopped and exchanged particulars.
It's not the first accident I had with my vehicle (had minor ones in the past) but somehow I just couldn't think and react rationally there and then when both drivers surveyed the damages and decide on what to do. I didn't do a lot of things because my mind was just like a whirlwind - I guess partly I'm affected by the loud noise that sounds like metal scratching against each other when I drove a little distance from the accident scene and that really frustrates me.
The right thing I should have done is to exchange particulars on the I/C - I only took down his name (not even full name!!) and didn't check his I/C at all. I should have noticed the make of the car or even take a picture of it - Bro was amused at how I could not recall I have a mobile camera (handphone) with me that I can simply snap. The only decent thing I knew I did right was when the other driver wrote his number down on a slip of paper, I immediately used my own mobile phone to give him a missed call - at least I made sure I had the right number =)
Bro helped me a great deal with the "aftermaths" - especially when I was complaining to him about how frustrated and irritated I was at the loud noise when I drove the car - everyone must be looking at me drive past and wondering "what's wrong with this car - the noise is louder than a modified sports car ..." haha. Anyway, Bro brought me to his mechanic and we decided to make a report to Idac because I needed a temporary car and making a claim to the insurance company was the only way out. Besides, the other driver insisted that it was merely the chip of the bumper clip, but obviously the bumper was worst hit than he imagined. I don't feel safe bringing my car to his recommended workshop at all, especially if there are ill-effects on this car that I will have to handle if not well repaired because of cost.
Anyway, as I looked back on how I handled the entire situation, I was asking myself, "where's my composure?? What had happened to it??" I used to be able to calmly think through things when situations like this crop up and rationally make a decision. What has happened to it? I guess when I really thought through this, I could trace it back to what I experienced about my dad - the sudden shock that just threw me off. The incidents were not related in any way, but the feelings generated from that incident obviously had repercussions. Little wonder why I often jumped whenever some things cropped up at home. It's an area I still need healing and restoration of confidence, but I guess the realization of it would make the working and managing of such feelings when it crop up again a lot easier?? I certainly hope ... and I trust the good Lord to help me as I learn.
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