"Preparedness" ???
"Preparedness" ???
Semester is going to begin again after a month plus of vacation. To me, it marks another phase in my life as I will, in 2 days' time, officially become a final year student. How time flies when I look back at how I began as occasional student, then moving on to become a part-time student while holding on to a full-time job, and deciding finally to take on the challenges as a full-time student, trusting God to provide for my financial needs.
I've been sharing with some friends how I hope my final year will be a memorable and fruitful one, as compared to my previous years of college life. I guess the regrets I had were the ill-discipline I've allowed myself to entertain ... the procrastination I've allowed myself to wallow in ... the relationships and friendships that are right before my eyes with classmates of different denomination and nationality that I've failed to appreciate ... and so on.
Well, I guess academically I've done well thus far, and sometimes perhaps "too well" to the extent that I "sacrificed" time for friends to mug and read. Very often, I did the same to my family too - moving into my own private space in the study room and reading, typing, thinking, etc. Definitely not something I want to carry on in this final year as I strive still to do my best academically.
I guess on one hand, I'm really excited about semester starting again, and my mind being challenged by the lecturers and friends during lessons and informal exchanges; yet on the other hand, I wonder how prepared I can actually be to be prepared enough to let this final year be a real great and marvelous one.
I suppose no matter how prepared I am, if I don't consciously allow God to lead me in this journey of learning and molding, I will always find myself being disappointed by my own actions and wilful ways.
Proverbs 16:1-3 reminds us "To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue. All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."
I'm excited yet apprehensive ... I look forward yet I felt like pulling back ... I'm therefore putting myself into the hands of the One who holds the universe and the One who holds my life, for He is the One who will give me the best and the One who will never shortchange me.
Let my life be a living sacrifice Lord and a fragrance to You. Amen.
Semester is going to begin again after a month plus of vacation. To me, it marks another phase in my life as I will, in 2 days' time, officially become a final year student. How time flies when I look back at how I began as occasional student, then moving on to become a part-time student while holding on to a full-time job, and deciding finally to take on the challenges as a full-time student, trusting God to provide for my financial needs.
I've been sharing with some friends how I hope my final year will be a memorable and fruitful one, as compared to my previous years of college life. I guess the regrets I had were the ill-discipline I've allowed myself to entertain ... the procrastination I've allowed myself to wallow in ... the relationships and friendships that are right before my eyes with classmates of different denomination and nationality that I've failed to appreciate ... and so on.
Well, I guess academically I've done well thus far, and sometimes perhaps "too well" to the extent that I "sacrificed" time for friends to mug and read. Very often, I did the same to my family too - moving into my own private space in the study room and reading, typing, thinking, etc. Definitely not something I want to carry on in this final year as I strive still to do my best academically.
I guess on one hand, I'm really excited about semester starting again, and my mind being challenged by the lecturers and friends during lessons and informal exchanges; yet on the other hand, I wonder how prepared I can actually be to be prepared enough to let this final year be a real great and marvelous one.
I suppose no matter how prepared I am, if I don't consciously allow God to lead me in this journey of learning and molding, I will always find myself being disappointed by my own actions and wilful ways.
Proverbs 16:1-3 reminds us "To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue. All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."
I'm excited yet apprehensive ... I look forward yet I felt like pulling back ... I'm therefore putting myself into the hands of the One who holds the universe and the One who holds my life, for He is the One who will give me the best and the One who will never shortchange me.
Let my life be a living sacrifice Lord and a fragrance to You. Amen.
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